Of compliments

I just dont know how to take a compliment.

All i could ever exercise was
'Thank you, i take that as a compliment' generic, and somewhat cynical. But doesnt always get the priority placing in my real life one line response list.

When i was getting my pay rise, i accompanied a thank you with 'uh huh, whats the catch?' To. My. Boss.
Really, brain??? Wheres my manner?? It didnt see it coming twice increments on my second year but could hv responded better hows that too hard?

Or when people say i look thinner
'Ahh no, its the shirt. Im wearing one size up'
Why cant i just smile and say my thanks and perhaps compliment him/her back?

Now i think i should do that fr now on. Reply with a thank, and quickly gather one nice thing about the complimentor and smile while saying that and mean it
'Thank you, u look nice too!'
Or
'Thank you, that shoes looks very good on you'

There must be one obvious thing that worth mentioning within 3 secs timeframe.

Now lets replay tonights happenstance
'Are you still studying? You looked very young'
Replace
'Nahh i think i look older than i actually am, sun beaten i must say'
With
'Thank you, i rarely get that compliment but really thank you. You look like losing a good deal on weight, eh? You look fabulous'
Oh come on. Fake is better than nothing right. I just know him last two weeks. He is thin like couldnt-care-less-to-eat-nor-even-bother-to-workout thin.

Or upon my comment
'I was like a robot throwing words in front there just now not actually giving a speech'
'No way u looked rather confidence despite being..pointless'
And perhaps i could be enlighted and replace this
'Nahh i think i can fake it at times'
To something like
'Do i? Ok looking forward to improve next time but really, thanks for the heads up'

Maybe i really wasnt born a nice person, but i want to at least be remembered as sometimes shes nice kinda person.

Lets work on it!

Im so getting older

I cant describe how good it feels to be all alone by myself in my room when i dont have anything to do outside, not working no nothing.
But i cant always do that.
I spend most of my time outside still.

I need to get to work.
I need to get food and other supplies.
I need to commute for somp many other reason.

As much as i love it to stay shut inside, one might still found me sipping drinks in coffee place at homely hours. I need a comfy chair for my bum to accompany me reading or sometimes i feel like i need to cari jodoh because seriously my biological clock is ticking im getting older and seeing ur peers keep showing their offsprings off made this auntie in her childbearing age slightly too sad of the wantings.

No im good.

Separated by a 4mm green tinted glass wall, i could see two couples sat by a table and i couldnt help but wondering
Are they having an e cig tutorial lesson or something?
They got my attention when a guy puffed out a thick smoke from a somewhat mobilephone-like device.
He then proceeds with a box of tiny glass bottles filled with mukticolured liquid. Must be the vapor i reckon.
Now they are passing a piece of e cig around and the first guy is doing some elaborate persuasion to get them buy a set from him, judgung from the large hand movement of his.

You just got a lady feels like she needs a smokey fix. Just a puff will do. Or two.

Sad day.

Resolution renew mid 2014

Career
Jumping ship meant an upgrade in my career journey. Although advancing, i have yet again to put myself as a beginner to learn as much as possible and open up to new ideas.
High rise and commercial property is new to me. Its interesting to see this is the market trending it seems at least in klang valley area.
Has to put a lot of patience and gain the trust of the team since i am a newcomer and they have a different culture. Gotta learn to adapt adapt and adapt.
Try to not to eliminate any oncoming obstacles but to tackle and resolve them.

Personal development.
Read diff things. Current issues, general knoiwledge, economy, finance, and award self w chick lit reads every once in a while. Look for classes too perhaps?

Lifestyle
Gotta start running, zumba, again. But i walked quite a distance to n fro train station to work so thats an everyday physical activity the least to be maintained. So unless got terrible insomnia eczema knee pain digestion prob, treasure this running holiday.
Perhaps could eye on charity works around kl area.
New hobby can wait.

Food
Have all natural food. Go for least processed form.
Cut down sugar, salt & oil.
More fibers ie vege n fruits. Vary the colours.
Cook at home. Carry tenong to work.
Nevermind having simple meals as long as its healthy.
Good for the body, too.

Spending
One ringgit saved is one ringgit earned.
Nuff said.

Saving
Cash, valuables, invest.
Dump as many as possible in asb.
Periodically acquire precious metals or other valuables.

To put on hold
- gunung
- luxury

InsyaAllah lets work on it!

My dream, insyaAllah

These are the roadmaps of going forward, insyaAllah, jika panjang umur.
It has been on my mind for quute sometimes. It started not very long ago. Yeappp, im already in it why bother writing this down now?

Because i still not committed to any long term doings. Been traveling here and there and i got the unsettling feelings and i figured i havent really write down the vows!

I got the worst feeling when a week long hiking trips ended earlier than expected like, 'oh, i have to figure what to do next' like, 'i hated going back ths early to the civilization'. As much as i hate to admit, i didnt come out with a properly lined out planning!

So here goes.

1. Volunteer. I want to make a change, make the world better, and see myself not doing for money and profit. I want to get rid of the dependancy of money. I've got enough guilt to be cleansed thoroughly.
This would be as long as 1 or 2 yrs.

2. Then i'll get back to the world, and further my studies. Perhaps something in management. I do love the technicals, but management is what im truly lacking of and be of more necessity. So like construction management or project management would be nice.

3. Then i'll join back the workforce. I dont mind starting it all over again, but it will be my give-it-all-out again.

4. I foresee my early retirement, perhaps to kick starr somethinv i would call my own. My company.

Please, please, pray for me.

May Allah ease everything, Ameen.