Sunday, January 20, 2013

of turning into the quarter life, insyaAllah

insyaAllah, semoga diberikan umur yang panjang.

looking back. where was i for the past 25 years?

i completed my gap year to my self satisfactory. i get to know wide range of people around the world and more importantly, they all inspire me in some way or another, however little.
well then, i got the job i wanted. it was not the best job anyone could dream of, but at least it did for me. and with the arrangement within the company, i got the trust from the upper management to let me handle the project all alone by myself. it was a yay for having the freedom. and another yay for the large set of responsibilities that lies within. and a mega yay for keeping my sanity in check. and having one of my 6 buildings undergone an inspection for handover with the authority just recently, i deserve a one-sixth final yeay! alhamdulillah.

my family is fine. but i have yet to get my mak n abah get a good well rest at home, without having to get to work anymore. or worrying about money. we children need to work harder for that.

abang is going to get married. its been a while since we last had any big family gathering for wedding. so this very one is much anticipated by us all. hello kakak! there'll be more ladies at home later on, hehe. but the kenduri will be sometimes later, mid 2013. or should we already get some preparation done?

my uncles n aunts are doing well. though my tuk n tokki is no longer around, we still get to celebrate raya together at kampung. in which the tradition was not practiced in like 5 yrs before.

my treasured friends doing just fine. although i have to admit, we are getting much on our own ways, and rarely our path crossed. i would love more meeting ups and catching ups but than we had. but i love u all very dearly. and seeing so many of them having the display pictures being their offspring/s instead of themselves, i am truely happy for that. my humble apology for not being able making my presence on most of your big days.

of love life, im still happily single. the word happy is loosely used here. but who would actually want to say otherwise, unless well, ones really is not happy. im a hopeless romantic if that's what a person want. so yeah, the dating game is really not for me. i cant be all sweety lovey dovey i guess.
i cant see my self dedicating my life to just one man, without any guarantee of what direction we are heading. nahh im not even sure about that.
when a person being too straight forward and act all confident, i feel like its not even real.
when a person being all unsure and not at all confident, that also doesn't sounds real to me.
so its true woman never actually know what they wanted.
its not like i afraid to fail it. im just afraid, when it really failed, i cant let u go.
i always believe in the love life after marriage. insyaAllah.

these being said, i guess i have to do better in days ahead. i really hope so. lets live more like a grown up!

chin up, and smile! :)

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